And as he lifted the veil..

It is a big day for her, not just big but the biggest.

All her life until now, she was a free bird,

Singing and dancing and laughing all through her days,

No one to question her, none to answer.

Pride gleamed in her eyes

Chivalry in her voice

Strength in her heart and

Confidence in her walk.

She was no less than anyone, she felt unstoppable.

She was the man to fight with the world yet so woman to feel for the unloved.

All her life she only knew how to go ahead and she did with grace.

Experience took over ignorance, courage over innocence, and she was shy no longer.

Until today, the biggest day of her life..

Today, a man will take her hands into his, and promise to be with her no matter what.

Today that man will promise her that she's not fighting alone any more.

Today that man will promise her that her life will change, and change for the best.

Definitely today is the biggest day of her life!

They all dressed her up, made her look more beautiful.

She was covered head to toe in beauty, yet she felt so vulnerable, a touch could burn her up.

She was never so unsure of her steps, which now lead her to him.

She was never so shaking with fear, fear to embrace the change.

In the midst of all her people, she felt she never knew anyone.

She wasn't sure if she was happy or scared, ready or unprepared, strong or shattered.

And now she is here and there is no going back.

Come what may!!

And as he lifted the veil..

She saw those eyes, hers as ever.

The newness in them, but as known as ever.

How could she now wait to start with "the rest of their lives".. Today the very yes today!

I reach for you

The touch of the breeze on my hair brought your scent to me from somewhere.

The pride on my forehead creased to show the glint of love when you pecked a kiss..

You talked through the flute of my voice and the words came out of my love.

You didnt speak a word nor did leave a word unsaid and there wasnt anything unheard between us.

I reached out to hold on to the truth, the truth in your words. The words that come and go, 

in and out of me.. 

Words that sing to me, words that make me dance. 

I reached out to hold that hand , hand that would walk me through all my hard times.. 

Those hands that'll fill in the gaps between my fingers.. Hands which would touch every part of me, shape every part of my existence. 

Those hands which aren't mine but are for me, to fit in so that we never go apart.

I reached out to you for your heart. A heart that sounded the same as mine. The heart that took my name with its every beat, and with that every beat, it made my heart skip a beat..

The heart which is of gold, the heart meant to love me forever, to keep me safe and home for life..

The heart thats so strong, that'll hold me tight when I am shaken. That'll cry with me but never let a drop of tear come from my eyes...

I reached out to you for your heart..

Your love makes me glow, makes me grow, makes me sing and dance. 

The love I see, I feel, burns me deep inside.. 

I love you till the far end of pain reaches a cry.

I love you for coming to me.

I love you for holding my hand.

I love you for giving me my heart.

So what you're not with me in every passing moment..

Every moment the breeze touches my hair, I feel your touch all over..

Every minute the sun kisses my skin, I feel your lips all over..

Every day the night falls, I know you want me the way I do...

My fishes in my water

My fishes in my water

Screaming and struggling to survive

So much do I look after them, so much do I care

So much do I think they love me, so much do I think they're mine

Still they scream, still they strive.

My fishes in my water

Happy and streaming in full life

So much do I feel I dont know them

So much do I feel I hardly own them

So much do I understand them

Still they sing, still they dance.

My fishes in my water

Josteling and bubbling with surprise

So much do I try to tame, as much I try and fail

So much I cry and blame, as much they shout and rail

Still they sleep, still they're calm.

My fishes in my water

Growing with life, moving with pride

They're with me for some time, I feel for sure they're mine

They come when I call, they wince when I fall

Still they stare, still they glare.

My fishes in my water

As much as I thought they grew, as much as I thought they're tame

As much as I thought they're mine, as much as they turn with time

So much do I feel I know them, so much do I feel I own them

As much as they bring me surprise, so much do they bring me pain

So much is my disbelief, so much is their shocking grief

Every time they're mine, every time they're them

Still they rule, still they ride.

In me they live, in me they'll die.

As they are, My fishes in my water

They continue to live, My fishes in thier own water.

One day it so happened..

One day it so happened ...

I was alone and watching outside my window

I felt the calmness in the air, I felt the stillness in my breath

I asked for a drizzle, and it poured and poured..

Until I could wipe it any more..

One day it so happened ...

I was with you, I was in you

I felt the strength, I felt oneness

A touch I needed, a hand I held

And love showered and showered on me..

Until I could cry for any more..

One day it so happened ...

I needed a reason, I had many questions

I felt distress, I was helpless

I asked for a light, and it glazed and glazed..

Until I could see any longer, any further..

 

One day it so happened ...

There was misery all over, there was so much grief

I asked for a shelter, I asked for relief

I asked for some white to cover the black, everywhere

And it snowed and snowed, and covered it all.. 

Until I could see no black anywhere..

One day when it all happened,

I was in myself, I was in Yourself

I was here with me, I was here with Thee

And it came all over to me again..

For now I know it was in reach, every time I thought I lost

For now I know I have that white, no matter how black is the thought

For now I know I need to ask, and believe the asked, it will be brought.. 

A forgotten name.. (18/10/00)

Show me the way, O Thee

Which I know is not meant for me.

What am I is strange to believe,

neither a past to cherish nor a future to live.

How naive are we people, knowing it all..

yet its You who's trusted by all.

Takes years for a tree to rise,

but a single storm to give it a fall..

Like an escapist have I become today,

is it exactly what You'd thought of one day..

There is a hollowness in my heart.

Stop it...

For anyone's sake, if at all its only a start..

Its again me who takes the blame,

only because to save Your ruthless name?

You in your secret ways have created a vacuum,

and left hundreds of reasons for me to assume..

Let it be like that, O God of bad times, 

are we just Your puppets of a sweet old rhyme?

When those black clouds hover around, 

I still look for a silver glint that surrounds..

Callous does Your name sound to me,

again its me made to suffer and distances to see..

In the arena of life, I'm made to sit on the stairs

and clap at other's victory and laugh at my own defame..

When my story comes to an end,

You will have one question to reason..

Will I be the one to have a smile at the end, or

Will You be the one to smile at my end?

Search (21/02/05)

The pen doesnt move, the dress of your thought comes into existance.

Your portrait is the masterpiece, for it has the brilliance of thousand stars..

                   You are a pawn of your own creativity.

                    The feeble wings are coming, ready to take the sky under itself..

The wind of passion will make you fall..

Not now..

Dont be, just for being.

The creation reaches out for you.

It wont let you break..

The wand in His hand, makes you stumble and stand.

The desire in you still burning like the sun..

Your Angel shall come to you.

His sparkle shall take you to Him.

The arithmatic now equals everything..

Dont give in.. You just need to  hold on..

Anonymous..

This beautiful piece of poetry is not from me... I found it somewhere and couldnt stop myself from adding into my collection... Dont even know the name of the poet/ poetess, but its simply one of the best...

In the dead of the night, as I woke up in cold sweat,

            your hand was what I groped for.

            your hug was for what I wept.

In the quiet of the morning, as I got up bleary- eyed,

            Your warmth was what I yearned for, 

            Your touch for what I cried.

In the chill of a rainy day, as the water splashed my pane,

To share a blanket, a book and tea with you, was all that I craved.

             You may be far away from me,

             You may not be mine,

             My heart bleeds for you my love,

             For you, my soul does pine.

No matter what the future holds,

No matter where we go,

My love for you is my life,

And will always be so..

My Self (28/02/05)

In the vast span of emptiness, is the deep hollow vessel of turbid emotions.

Beyond the long hours of silence, a feeble shriek of wisdom longs for salvation.

The truth in the name is miniscule, yet it desires the fame of the burning sky.

Innocence attained martyrdom, in the struggling years of tenderness.

The magma is there, that craves for a vent to flow the placid resentment out.

The mask that had always been, is eventually losing its gleam.

Behind is an image, dreary and desperate for one lost identity.

The hands weep in the loneliness of vacuum, in search of one touch of belongingness.

False does everything seem to me.

Mortal do I see in my Hero's statue.

Lost is the direction, in the sand of My time.

Yet again I stand, Yet again I fight.

Yet again I say, I'll wait..

Wait for the light that shines my sweat,

Wait for the time that smiles my way,

Wait for those hands that take me there....

One day at a time..

No idea what is today..

Where am I heading and what do I look for?

There are so many questions that the world wants to know..

There are so many questions that my self asks me..

Where do I go for the answers?

Whom do I look for the answers?

Where is the place like eternity?

When is the time like ecstacy?

I am burning out myself, I want to light for thy self..

I know where I end, I want to know where to start.

What is there in me, who is crying out for me?

What is that I need most?

How is that I am going to find?

Who is to take me there.. Who is to hold my hand.. Who is to wipe my tears.. Who is to walk with me..

No idea what is today.

No idea how will be everyday.

No idea where I am going.

No idea why I am mourning.

No idea who is to be mine.

No idea how do I take..

One day at a time..

i question you always

Why do you write which i cant forget?

Whom do u see in me when u pretend to see me?

How can you be so simple and so straight?

How can you speak everything and not feel anything?

How do you think of me that i feel that u called my name?

Why do you think that you are in me and i was ever in you?

When did you last think of me when u actually thought of me deep?

Why am i asking you all this when i know it all?

Why do you care when i know that you dont?

How do you still hope that we can meet?

Why do i hope that we'd be in love some day?

How do i think we are not in love today?

How do i know you didnt feel anything for me ever?

How do i know that whatever you say is not from your heart?

When will i know that you were never for me? 

Why do i wait for you when i know you wont come?

What do i wait for when i know its not there?

What have i got from you which i can remember?

What have i given you which you wont forget?

How do i convince me that theres no love?

How do i feel that theres no feeling?

How do i stop this which i didnt start?

How do i know that its actually not there?

How do i understand that it'll never be?

What do you write that i cant forget?

How do you write that i never forget?

How do you know that i'll never forget?

Please tell me because i want to forget...