Sometimes when I fail myself

Sometimes when I fail myself.
I think I have it in me,
the fire that I lit sometime back.
It did not start the way it does,
mine was weak and would flicker.
I thought I didn't do it right
I thought I didn't know enough
Still I let it burn somehow
I looked for ways I could make it stronger,
glow brighter and last longer
Trust me it was not so easy,
as it might be for others.
For I didn't know what made it weak
and I don't think I lit it wrong.
There are as many ways you light your fire.
Then why was mine so weak and flicker?
Time and again I asked myself,
what to start and what to stop?
Why it works for some but me,
why its what I don't understand?
And so I feel I failed myself
coz there can't be a way like this
Coz when it works for all but me
maybe thats when I failed myself.